I turn 26 today! WooHoo!
My birthdays are a time of reflection. I didn’t
really have significant birthday parties growing up. There was my 1st
birthday which I don’t remember, but there’s a picture of me with a knife and a
cake, plus my mom said there was a party, so I believe her. Then there was my
10th birthday which was spent at the beach with family. That one, I
remember quite vividly. It was fun at the time. There wasn’t much of anything
again till my 24th birthday. That one was so significant. I got
engaged to the then ‘love of my life’
and ate lobster at the same time (lobster
is absolutely disgusting by the way). That was a good day. My ring was the
most beautiful rose gold ring and I wasn’t sure anything could top that.
But on my 25th birthday, I went all
out – trying to prove to myself and my ex that I was happy. I threw a birthday
just to prove that I didn’t need my ex and that I was happy. It was beautiful. I
worked hard for a summer body and got it. The party was amazing, but as soon as
I got home, I called my ex because all I really wanted was to spend the day
with him and relive my 24th birthday.
Then there’s today – my 26th
birthday. There are no balloons, no flowers and definitely no party. There’s me
in a beautiful hotel room surrounded by 4 of my best girlfriends. There is no
longer a need to put on a charade or an appearance of happiness; because when
you’re really happy, you don’t feel the need to prove it to anyone. I don’t eat
cake but I got one cupcake and blew out a candle at midnight. I’m making this a
tradition.
It’s crazy how it’s taken me 26years to realise
that I am whole and complete by myself. I have thrown away all the “I can’ts” and “I am not good enoughs” from my vocabulary. I can and I am good enough. I accept that there are parts of
me that are still broken from the pain I suffered, but healing is a daily job
and I’m making significant progress. I’m throwing away the tough exterior from
now on. There’s nothing wrong with being vulnerable. I don’t feel guilty for
starting life all over again at 26! Better late than never, they say. So here’s
to finally loving myself at the big age
of 26! Love & light!
Lots of love,
Happy birthday sunshine! I hope this new chapter is filled with so much light, love, laughter, and positive energy!
ReplyDeletexoxo!
Thanks a lot! The new year has started off great xx
DeleteTomi well done on being honest and open about your journey. Here’s wishing you a very happy birthday lovely lady! May you continue to grow into the woman God created you to be. You’re blessed and highly favored. Have an amazing day xxx
ReplyDeleteAmen to that! Thanks a million! <3
DeleteGood read. Happy birthday sugar!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Tomi. Cheers to living yourself. I pray for more grace and wisdom upon your life. God bless you
ReplyDeleteAmen, thank you so much xx
DeleteHappy Birthday to you Tomi! this year would be filled with loads of surprises! You'd see!
ReplyDeleteYayyy! I receive that in Jesus' name
DeleteHappy Birthday Tomilola. I am proud of you
ReplyDeleteThis means a lot. Thank you x
DeleteYour honesty and openness is refreshing, empowering even. It makes me want to go out and find myself. In a world where everything says you should hide and cover yourself, I think you've found the secret to thriving. Hope you had a great birthday. Keep being you.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Nky! your comment has filled me with more love and more light xx
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